today

So day 1 of exercise and diet .. no exercise .. but I did stay away from sugar, mostly. I had a few graham crackers but they don't count. At least not now. Maybe later on.

I'm going to work on the quilt -- I tried to skip a step so I need to go back to step 2 and pin the quilt together, then put the top and bottom together.

I wanted to do something on here, but I can't remember what it was. as usual. I was going to add some lists on different days of the week or something.

exercise

I need to make a commitment to exercise and watch what I eat. So,maybe if I write it here, I'll actually be committed to it. I'm going to start out slow -- I'll start with 15 minutes a day for the next two weeks. That's not too much .. I can do that. As for the eating -- I need to cut out sugar. So no cookies, no more cookies. No more candy. No more cake -- except for required functions at work, etc.

So, I'm counting on you to keep me accountable.

Housework

That's what the weekends are for .. house work. some fun stuff too. I finished the quilt top of the baby quilt I'm making. I need to get the backing and then put it together. It's kind of cute. Two other people in my life are having babies so I now have some things to make baby blankets / quilts for. exciting. Of course, this blanket is a girl blanket and the two new babies are boys. I have some ideas of what to do but will have to wait and see what I end up doing.

Anyway, did laundry this morning. I didn't get to it last week so todays was kind of a lot. I didn't clean enough so tomorrow I ought to get to the bathroom and do some dusting around the house .. we'll see.

We also went to Costco -- it wasn't particularly busy but I'm not sure if that is usual for this Costco on a Saturday afternoon; it might be. Then I got a manicure. I need to get those every couple-three weeks or my nails start looking bad. This was like five weeks and was way too long. I'm going to go again in two weeks and see if I can't keep up on them better.

Are you bored yet?

Watched some TV and now it's time to crash. That was my Saturday.

tomorrow we have church, then we'll head to Mervyn's to see how their going out of business is going (actually kind of scary); then I'll probably go to JoAnn's for the backing fabric, I'm thinking light purple felt - don't think I 'll finish the quilt but I'll be able to put it together, or at least start to.

I want to make a quilt for Nana for Christmas - I'd also like to get something for my friend who we will probably impose upon -- and I'd like to get new stockings for everyone -- maybe make them, but I want whatever I do to be really nice.

On another note, I hurt my back when moving some furniture today and I'm taking vicodin and naprocin to try and stave off the pain. Hoping it'll just go away. The last time I did this, it took about three days.

that's it for now

Politics, schmolitics

I am sick of all the political talk around my house. The arguments, the passionate discussions. The one who talks dire news and the one who says the worst hasn't hit us yet. They are both right but the discussion just leaves me frustrated. it makes me fearful. I don't need to hear this all the time. I prefer entertainment. Maybe a small dose of reality but not a big one. I don't want to live in a vacuum but I don't want to be afraid of what is to come. I want to live prudently but not fearfully. Right now I'm fearful. Trying not to spend money except as necessary. But feeling like I'm spending it anyway. Okay.

Songs

There are many songs that I know that I don't know so well, this week's song is "Oh, what a night" by Frankie Valli and the 4 Seasons. For about 30 years I thought the chorus went like this:

Oh, I. I got a funny feeling when she walked
In the room and I,
As I recall it ended my youth ..

however the real words are

As I recall it ended much too soon.

which makes more sense but I just couldn't hear it -- not until I went and saw Jersey Boys -- then I could understand the words and now it is perfectly clear. I wonder for how many other songs I have the wrong words.

This is truly something of import to ponder.

boldness

This is what I am working on this week. Not being afraid of who I am and not being afraid for others to see me, the real me. This is something that definitely goes back to my childhood -- being ashamed of what I do, what I think, and who I am. I don't know why, what, or who caused this -- or if it's just me -- but it's something I'm tired of and ready to take on.

In two weeks I'm going to be getting together with a group of friends. I should be excited but it is feeling rather like an obligation. I'll do it and enjoy it but I would rather look forward to it.

10 good things about today
1 -- it's wednesday
2 -- I can work on my quilt tonight
3 -- don't have to do laundry
4 -- no interviews at work
5 -- I don't have any tests
6 -- it's not raining
7 -- it's not beastly hot
8 -- I have a job
9 -- I have gas in my car
10 -- I'm alive!

yea! I did it.

Blood

I gave blood today. It worked out well because the nurse who stuck me knew what she was doing. I have small veins and when they don't know it is really tough. Time wasn't an issue or anything.

Feeling rather melancholy. back to wishing things were different, I know I need to enjoy today for what it is and not look back with regret or look forward with dread. My life is good. there are some things that could be improved, but isn't it that way for everyone?

Wednesday

It's only wednesday and I'm exhausted. Just didn't get enough rest this weekend. Or maybe there's something wrong with me. Well, I'm going to eat dinner maybe that will help. Lunch didn't.