Monday Mystique ...

just had to have two words beginning with M. Anyway, went to Yoga tonight (with Mark). I still can't do half the moves, but hopefully I'm getting better at it.

I was in the doldrums this weekend, melancholic. Really dragging. I did absolutely nothing - wait that's a lie. Saturday was okay, went to yoga in the a.m. and then met Amanda at Starbucks (and then Marshalls and Cost Plus) and it was beastly hot ... oh and then Paul and I went and saw "the Time Traveler's Wife". However, Sunday was a different story .. after church I did as little as possible .. it could have been a productive day but instead was just a wasted day. I was wishing life were different.

I don't really know how to describe it. Maybe just marking time, waiting for things to change, or just going through the motions.

Today, I decided that the only way for life to be different for me now is to do the things I would do in the "different life" that I'm dreaming of -- to the extent I can. I was thinking "what if I were in this life, the different life, what would I be doing"? So I thought of the things that I picture in this different life and I realized that I can do some of those things now. So maybe I can make my life I'm the life i'm dreaming of. Does that make sense?

If I don't want to watch TV, I don't have to. If I want to watch TV, I can.

If I want to go somewhere on the weekend, I can.

Cooking doesn't have to be dull and boring. I can explore different types of foods, new recipes, I can make it interesting.

If I want to read books and go to the library, I will. If I want to go to thrift stores, antique stores, or yard sales, I can and will. I don't have to wait for this dreamed of new and different life to live the way I want to.

Maybe one day all my dreams will come true, but I'm not holding my breath.

later.

Friday's Fab Four

1 -- played Pinochle --haven't done that in forever. Had a good time and we won! I kinda pushed myself to bid more and tried hard.

2 -- got fingerprinted (the lady fingerprinting me still had no idea what/where Washington, DC was and or is - these Californians just don't know their geography)

3 -- had sandwiches for dinner (it was too hot to cook)

4 -- ran a mile (and a total of 3.6 miles on the treadmill!)

It's actually Saturday but I thought I'd finish my Friday first. til tomorrow.

Thursday's Deep Thoughts

Don't know that I have any deep thoughts tonight but I did have some great popcorn. From Popcorn, Indiana. I wonder if that's a real city. Let me check ...



okay, so it is. A little south of Bloomington (home of Indiana University, my brother's alma mater). If I ever go to the Midwest to visit my sister Anna, or my niece, Katie, I'll have to go to Popcorn. Anyway, it is the very best bagged popcorn I've ever had. Not that I'm a popcorn connoisseur...

I'm not very deep today. maybe next week.

Wally World and Monday Madness

We needed a new carpet to put over the messed up carpet in our living room so we went to Target, but the only carpets they had that were big enough were $150. Not only did we not want to pay that much but we also didn't like them ... sooooo we went to WalMart. It was packed! Everyone must have decided that they had to buy something (and I thought we were in a recession?) ... The lines were 10 people deep. However, we picked up our bag of carpet and made it through My husband left me alone to fend for myself and somehow, for once in my life, I picked the right line! Got through in less than 10 minutes! The rug is now on our rug in the living room.

My #2 son is finishing up the deck. Oh, he went with me to yoga tonight. Fortunately, I was so engrossed in trying to get all the moves down I forgot to be embarrassed -- not about him but about me! I can't believe how hard yoga is.

Let's see, for the rest of the madness ... the grandson and his parents are spending the night tonight. Gave the grandson a bath. Fun to have him around. Then he was sitting on the floor playing with a bucket (why buy toys???) and just laughing up a storm, for no reason! it was too cute.

Lego is sleeping next to me ... as I write. He usually is on the other side of the bed, but tonight he's decided he wants to push me out of the way instead of the husband. Normally, it's Weezer who is crowding me, but with the baby and the dog in the house he is on edge and isn't hanging out with me :-(

I'm just rambling. I was thinking how I'd like to go to Michigan for a week in the fall. Just to get away and be somewhere peaceful and quiet ... maybe next year. Well, back to stupid, mindless, computer games.

ta ta for now

longings

My soul thirsts for You, my flesh yearns for You, In a dry and weary land where there is no water...

early quilt pic

I've uploaded my most recent quilt. It's for Kelly on her birthday next week. I'm really happy with the binding and the pattern. Not so sure about the colors, I hope she'll like it. Here's one picture.