motives

how can we figure out what our motives are for doing anything? I am so motivated by my self interest. I want to feel good so I do things to make me feel good. Whether it's eating or even exercising (which I hate), I do it to make ME feel good. I would so like to be motivated by love for others.

Enough of that. I want to learn something and learn to do it well. I have played around with different things, cross stitich, knitting, crocheting, photography, and now quilting, but I have never worked at any of them very hard. I want to work hard at something and achieve a higher level of skill. I would really like to be good at something.

Well, the husband is here so I'll call it a night.

ttfn (ta ta for now)

Work

So I anticipate next week being a really tough week -- not so much the work but definitely the people. I've got to do reviews and I am not looking forward to it. I am really thankful that I have a job and that we are not experiencing lay offs.

I wonder how things are going to go. I'm not really worried or at least I'm trying not to be. I am hearing more and more stories of lay offs and there is a part of me that is freaking out inside. It's not us, not yet.

And with all this, I fear that the people with whom I work are going to make my life miserable next week. Not all of them, but some will.

WalMart

So I went to WalMart as planned and hated it as expected. The people who shop there are rude. The people who work there are too. It is dirty and I just don't like it. It's not all WalMarts, I don't think, but it certainly is with this one.

They did have some interesting fabrics, though. I got some delft blue yarn to make scarves for Special Olympics; and I didn't spend my allotted fun money. So I will put the allotted money in savings.

I need to figure out what quilt to make next.

Here's a picture of my favorite grandson!!

charmed

heard a new phrase today: I must be butter, cuz I'm on a roll.

Of course, I love both!

Going to Walmart to get some stuff -- I hate Walmart but they have what I want and need -- I gotta pick up yarn for tomorrow night's knitting workshop. Some for people and the other for Special Olympics scarfs, or is that scarves???

Anyway, I gotta run but I wanted to write a little bit now.

confusion

I'm trying to accept that I am where God wants me to be. Trying to get over the feeling of hopelessness and being overwhelmed. Okay, I need to focus on the positive.

1 - the devil cat is being sweet, today
2 - we can return the TV we bought, cuz the old one still works
3 - I have five terrific kids
4 - I have one terrific grandson
5 - I have a good support network
6 - I have a good job

I have a terrific friend who I never would have imagined being friends with. I am soooo thankful. Thanks Amanda for being my friend.

devil cat

So, we took a kitten in when he was about a day old. Bottle fed him and took care of his other needs like a mother cat (well sort of). Now he's grown up and attacks people like a maniac. He can be loving an affectionate -- but when he attacks he is terrifying. Last night, when I got up in the middle of the night, as I came back to bed he grabbed hold of my upper arm and really dug his claws in. so how do you deal with that.

Anyway, in spite of his obvious flaws, I just love this cat.

So, I live with the devil cat. He stays in my room most of the time. Sleeps on my pillow. I try to read his moods but I constantly don't get it.

Here's a picture of the devil cat as a teeny weeny -- okay, it didn't work. the picture is too big. I'll try again later.

Election Day 2008

1 -- walked on the treadmill for 30 minutes today
2 -- voted
3 -- played shuffleboard with my husband and #1 son
4 -- made dinner for my parents

Decided to bail on plans for tomorrow night to spend the evening with my husband on his birthday. I was feeling guilty about not being around with my son here and not hanging out with my hubby on his b-day. Of course, deciding to cancel makes me feel guilty for doing that.

clever, i think not

I want to start coming up with more clever titles. One of my favorite shows (for now anyway), charmed, always has the most clever titles for their shows. They are always take offs from movies, books, or other TV shows. Really clever. however, on another note, I finished my most recent quilt. I'm really happy with it -- my only complaint is the size.



Now for the next one. Not sure what I want to do. I am going to the library tomorrow to get some quilt books/magazines to get an idea of what I want to do.

Well today is election day, I'm probably going to vote in the a.m. -- they say the lines will be long. We'll see.

That's it for now.
later.

eod

got the laundry done, the beds made, the floor vacuumed (well most of it); did some shopping, sewing and knitting Pretty productive day. Even got 30 minutes on the treadmill.

tomorrow should be an exciting day. church in the a.m. then i must must must go to work. I have to work on the budget and some other things so that I can spend the time with #1 son when he's here.

So, push me out the door tomorrow to do this. It will be a good thing in the long run.

Redskins play on Monday night.

later.

halloween is over

so no excuses to eat candy or other goodies -- at least until Thanksgiving ... of course I need to finish the bags we bought to give to the non-existent trick-or-treaters. We got one group with two kids. that was it.

James Bond is on TV and I'm doing laundry. Another exciting Saturday. Actually I really enjoy relaxing and hanging around the house. Maybe even getting some things done. I want to finish the baby quilt I'm making -- so that I can start on another one. I want to make two blankets for two people at work (who are having boys) and I also want to make one for my mother-in-law for Christmas -- maybe my best friend who we're hoping to spend time with while we're on the East Coast. Lots of plans. Let's see how far we get. The work things don't need to be done until January -- the others need to be done in December. We'll see.

I don't like the new James Bond (not the movies but the actor) -- he's supposed to be tall dark and handsome. Not blonde.

My #1 son is coming home for a visit tomorrow. It will be great to see him. I think we will have the whole family together on Thursday night. I'd like it to be a picture opportunity but usually someone is in a funk and it doesn't happen. We can hope and pray for the best.

that's it for now. I'll write more later if I have anything to say.